JacketFreak on DeviantArthttps://www.deviantart.com/jacketfreak/art/Really-not-feeling-OK-at-the-moment-716165685JacketFreak

Deviation Actions

JacketFreak's avatar

Really not feeling OK at the moment.

By
Published:
17.8K Views

Description

Yes... I'm using a chibi version of me to get my feelings across. Sue me :p

In all seriousness though... Yeah... I am really going through a very rough time. Financially, emotionally, and physically (My back is killing me and painkillers are not helping). And it's in times like these that I actually find drawing and reading you guys comments really helpful.

Most of your comments do really cheer me up. It always puts a smile on my face when my art makes someone's day.

But every blue moon, there will be that person that will REALLY not like one of my updates. And feel the urge to hurt me with harsh words.

Because, yes... Behind the screen. Despite the fact that I draw people in peril and bondage situations... There is an actual person. Ironic... I know. I am sure that some people picture me as a sexist psycho. But In reality, I love and respect women. That my fantasies don't reflect my view of women. They just reflect... well.. My fantasies. 

My point is: behind this screen. There is someone with real emotions.

And what you say to that person, can make it's brightest day. But it may also be very destructive.

I'm not trying to point fingers at people, or to get you to feel sorry for me. What I'm feeling right now does not make me special. Many artists felt it and will feel it in the future. It really isn't that uncommon.

I created this avatar (Tonkatsu) with the hope that it would give me a means to humanize me a little bit and make some very "passionate" fans understand that... Yes... I am a person. I feel. What you say to me, WILL affect me.

I recently opened my Patreon page to give fans and friends a way to support me financially. And yes, "support" is the key word here. I perfectly understand that sometimes... It may happen that I draw a character you don't like. A fetish... You don't like. A type of bondage... You don't like. And I welcome your criticism with open arms. As long as it is respectful and constructive. 

I want to make all of my patrons happy. But Yes, some of them may not like one particular content I upload and feel that it did not give them what they paid for. I apologies, when this happens as I truly want you to get what you pay for.

But see... when someone sends me messages like these:

- "I am insulted by this update."
- "It felt like I'd just dropped $5 down the toilet."

That... Really hurts me. More then you can think. Again, I think that their disappointment is not without merit. But is this kind of reaction really necessary?

I don't always get messages like these, but it happens every now and then... And It crushes me every time. I know some artists just brush these off. I wish I could. But I can't. I simply can't.

And yes, these types of comments can get the best of me. I get angry. I over react. I say stupid shit.

Still... I don't think any artist deserves to get messages like these. Some of you may not agree. And that's ok.

But still... I need you guys to do me, two favors:

1) Please don't join my patreon if it isn't  with the intention of supporting me. The patreon page is a way to get rewards... yes, that much is true. But most importantly, it is there for you to support the artist. If you feel that the content is not up to your standards, you are more then welcome to cancel your patronage. But please... Don't try to "Get to me". It's really not necessary. While I am struggling financially and yes I REALLY need money right now. I would rather have your emotional support rather then getting attacked in exchange of your money. Be realistic. Not every update will cather specifically to your needs. So again, support me on patreon to SUPPORT me. Not just to get early content and unload on me when you don't like something.

2) Please... When you message me or comment... Please... Just... Don't be a jerk. Really don't. You can voice your opinion without being toxic or destructive with the words you choose. Please, show a minimum of respect and don't try to humiliate the artist you like.

Folks... I 'm really not feeling great at the moment. I have a lot of shit going on in my life. And I want drawing and my fans to be my lifeboat in these hard times. Not the final drop of water that will sink the ship.

Please just be... Descent. That is all I ask. 

I am really thankful to anyone who is supporting financially. As I really need the money. But more then anything, it is the fan's and some that consider friend's emotional support I need the most right now.

I apologies if this update is no really what some of you expected and if my complaints and emotions are annoying to some of you.

But yeah... I want to keep posting things without felling anxiety and feeding my current depression in the process.

A special shout out to :iconaria-warden: :iconphantomdotexe: :icongojiro7: :iconosvaldogreco: :iconparangsakti: who have always been very nice, and patient with me in all these years since I joined this website.

But also a general thank you to everyone else who has been supportive of my work despite my many bumps and breaks.


JF
Image size
839x1600px 279.86 KB
© 2017 - 2024 JacketFreak
Comments67
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
tiagozeva's avatar
I always love your art and get really happy whenever you post something! hang in there! instant patreon here!